Plantando neutricidade
5/11/2011 10:41:00 AM Postado por Vini Barros
A felicidade é como faísca num campo de capim seco. É preciso apenas a menor delas para que o fogo se alastre, e ele vai se espalhando, quanto mais o tempo passa mais forte e vivo fica o fogo, e mais e mais ele vai se espelhando entre os campos. Mas uma hora ou outra, sempre surge alguém para apagar o fogo, pois um incêndio não é bem vindo, mesmo que ele esteja consumindo, seu própio campo, mesmo que você esteja bem com aquilo. As pessoas, umas mais. outras menos vão sempre se incomodar com a sua felicidade. Pois elas querem usar do seu campo para benefício próprio, plantam as esperanças, sonhos e expectativas e esperam que você sempre corresponda, que seu campo seja sempre fértil, sempre produzindo, nunca recebendo nada em troca.
Mas e depois que o incêndo foi controlado? O que sobra? A resposta é bem simples, cinzas. A terra fica improdutiva, e aqueles que estavam ávidos em ter as suas terras de novo, perdem o interesse em ver a terra em estado tão deplorável, e partem em um grande exôdo a procura de novas terras em que possam mais uma vez plantar e colher suas ambições. E o pobre dono das terras como fica? Este fica desolado no iníco, mas logo ele começa a ver novas possibilidades para a terra. Não sei todos, mas eu tenho uma certa dificuldade em tratar da minha terra só, então peço aqueles que não seguiram o exôdo para ajuderem na lida da terra.
O problema é que nem todos querem tratar da terra assim, eles querem, ou ver ela verde outra vez, ou brilhante dentre as chamas, não percebem que pra que isso aconteça, leva um tempo. Tempo este que não vale a espera, a vontade e muita mas a paciência, esta é pouca.
Escrevi tudo isso, com um único intuito: Dizer que minhas terras hoje estão neutras. Ao que pareçe a felicidade não brota muito bem nessas terras e quando ela fica repleta de cinzas, as pessoas simplesmente não tem paciência de esperar a terra voltar normal. Não digo que irei abandona-la, o que as vezes pareçe ser a melhor escolha, eu percebi que certo mesmo é a incerteza de que nada é certo. Pensei que minhas terras, minha vida, finalmente estavam indo num rumo certo, mas veio a chuva, uma garroa apenas, e levou parte da minha plantação de esperança. O amor, esse ficou intocavél, esperando vir aquele que tão bem sabe rega-lo.
From Now and Then
8/15/2010 12:49:00 PM Postado por Vini Barros
Where do I go? What to do? Who am I? All I have are those question that echoes inside of me, and every time they come up in my mind, I get hurt deep within for not having the answers, and maybe, I'll never answer them....
Heart
5/27/2010 03:46:00 PM Postado por Vini Barros
What is it? If I tear open your chest, Will I see it inside? If I shatter your skull, Will I see it there? You damn humans speak so easily of it, almost as it.... I see this thing in my hand, Is this the heart? (Ulquiorra Schiffer)
Well I was wondering, what Heart is or what it represents to me. The Heart is more than just one more organ, maybe it is something beyond our body, our comprehension. The Heart, to me, is my strength to carry on, my hope of better days, the unbreakable will of never giving up.
Where do you think that "Heart" is? When you and I interact with each other, a Heart is born between us for the first time. It is not in the body. When you think of something, when you thing of someone, a Heart is born there. Suppose you are the only person in the world, there wouldn't be a heart anywhere, would there? ( Shiba Kaien)
I kinda agree with Kaien, we all need someone else to establish the Heart, alone we are nothing but walking flesh and bones, but together we can be more than that, we grow and develop ourselves. The Heart is our precious treasure, and we all need to protect it. You, my friend, you have a piece of it, a piece of my own Heart and I have ours as well, so while we keep those parts save, even if we die, our Hearts will remain in this world, with your friends. Right now, my Heart is here, and there is no other place I'd like to be! Where is your Heart?
Five Times Beating Heart
5/26/2010 01:18:00 PM Postado por Vini Barros
Bom, eu não sei ao certo o que faria, tem tanta coisa, eu seria um marinheiro e viajaria por todo o globo, ou ainda poderia ser um mangaká, eu falaria com pessoas que eu não conheço, iria sonhar algo novo todo dia, poderia dançar na chuva, não ter medo de amar, ir no insano todo dia, compor uma música, rir das piadas sem graça, ser especial pra alguém, ir na loja mais cara da cidade e comprar tudo e depois presentiar meus amigos, confabular com o luar, lutar pelo o que eu quero, ter uma ideologia nova, aprender a andar de bicicleta, ver mais o pôr-do-sol. Putz muita coisa mesmo! Mas o q importa é q faria tudo isso cinco vezes, e por cinco vezes eu diria que a vida vale a pena ser vivida do jeito que ela é!
Previous On Me!
5/26/2010 01:21:00 AM Postado por Vini Barros
Muita coisa aconteçeu desde a última vez q eu escrevi algo aki, muita coisa mesmo! Meus pais mudaram pra Caiena, eu começei um curso d Françês, quase tive um emprego, larguei na reta final, mas não me arrependo, emagreçi uns 10 kilos, quase me mato sem querer querendo, pessoas distante de mim ganharam espaço e pessoas q estavam perto acabaram indo pra longe! Mas nem tudo são mudanças, eu ainda não sei o q fazer da vida, ainda leio Bleach, ainda tenho as mesmas discusões sem findamentos com o Hoshino, ainda gasto no cartão mais do q eu posso pagar, ainda acho o amor um sentimento besta, e mesmo assim, ainda amo as mesmas pessoas!
It's coming...
12/29/2009 12:46:00 AM Postado por Vini Barros
Well 2010 is coming, and gosh 2009 passed so fast, I did not perceive it, but that's the pace of things, of everything, time is always passing by in a fasting speed that take off all of it and we get no time to enjoy the time itself. So for 2010 I'm going to make no plans... I'll do things in and for the moment, I'm tired to say things like 'I'm going to study more, I'm going to behave better and etc', that's all bullshit, no, no for this year I'll say things like "I'm enjoying the now, with people who want to be here with me, with those strangers I barely know, I'm looking to the skies and watching cloud's draws'. I wanna do the unexpected in 2010, I know, saying it sounds like making a plan, but who cares? Well I don't!
So I really hope to see you in 2010, the ones I know, and the ones that are there out side, somewhere in my future. Let's make it worth, even for a sec, let's do this.... let's live! Peace all!
Hurt
11/08/2009 09:05:00 AM Postado por Vini Barros
Enjoy it
Say it Even If Nobody Hears!
11/01/2009 11:13:00 PM Postado por Vini Barros
Yo! I got a feeling.... a feeling deep inside! And I want to share with everybody, with the world, I just wanna say thanks for everyone in my life! For every little moment that you have afforded me. You have no idea how you're important to me. The ones who are still with me, the ones who are gone. Thanks. For being there, for share a few seconds or a whole life with me, I'll never forget you. Thanks Karla for being my oldest friend, even we're away now we have so much childhood's memories, you and all those guys from school, we have something unique that are only ours, we grew up together. Thanks Leo for teach me how do not be a friend, I learnt a lot from you, and if I still believe in people, it's all because of you. Thanks Ana Carla and Saulo, my first time trying alcoholic drinks hehehe such a evening at Compania Paulista. Thanks Dark, Cintia, Cilas, Bruno and all the other guys from we82, where are you now? Those weekends and "summer" vacations are still in my mind, everyday was new adventure, a new game to play. Thanks Alana, Gisele, and Marquitinho for those vacations at Mosqueiro, they were funny after all. Thanx Bela for being all those years here, by my side, I'm really lucky to be you as a friend. Thanks Alê for made me feel in love again,Thanks Jake to make me see things clearly and I was in doubt. Thanks to Hoshino, for allow me to gettin' in his life and teach new things everyday, Thanks Rafitcha, she's the one who understands me better than anyone else in this world, Thanks to Markypaul, the borther I chose, and I blindfold trust him, Those last ones I'm not ashamed to say that I love them. The list are really huge, have you ever stopped to think about people who in some way helped you in your way? Well I had. Well that's it, right now I feel like a marching band, playing around a song, that goes right to people's heart! Yes I still the same fool! Good night!
Pour 赤い雨 - Red Post!
10/27/2009 11:17:00 PM Postado por Vini Barros
"Grant me Peace of Mind"
Swing! Swing! We went through the night!
10/26/2009 01:34:00 PM Postado por Vini Barros
Last Saturday night I was talking to a friend that I don't see since 2007's vacations, and that fact was kinda curious. 1st 'cause I was going bed when she got online, and then she started to talk, well we talked about things that happened since the last time we saw each other and what we are going to do from now, but that night, I was kinda inspired, and she started to complain about some problem, involving people who lets us down, and we can not trust. Well I told her that I already felt that like a thousand of times, because to me is to easy to trust in people, and most of the time, people I trust just don't give a damn to me, and that's really frustrating, I hate it. But I told her that it's life, we don't create any rule, but we need to follow the ones that are imposed to us. No one cares if we like it or not. Well, as I said, I was very inspired that night and we kept talking about it all for a long, long time and she got really surprised about what I was telling her, her words:
"Boy, I did not know that you were that smart and wise, when I met you, you were so funny and making jokes, you look different now." I told her that in fact I'm this way, you know, if you make jokes, or look happy some way you got people's attention for awhile, but in fact I'm not that joker that everyone think I am. It's just a mask, last Sunday at Centro Ita, I was not that happy, I was being me, but people just don't understand, or rather they prefer me to be the joker, I don't know and to tell you the truth I don't care, they're just people playing the same game that I play, and some of them play better than me.
" Cause you can do it better than me
And I can't do it better than you"
Because I Was Born For This...
10/16/2009 08:47:00 PM Postado por Vini Barros
As vezes acho que não nasci pro curso que eu faço! Sei lá! Ser professor não é algo que eu goste, a vida é mais do que ensinar e ensinar! Eu prefiro aprender, sabe, é mais fácil, dá menos trabalho, ensinar não é algo que eu queria, não mesmo! E isso reflete muito no meu desempenho nesse curso, mas fazer o que, ou eu estudo isso, ou nada. Por isso vou levando esse curso, aos trancos e barrancos... E assim a vida segue... As vezes fico chatiado comigo mesmo, pq mesmo que eu quisesse eu nunka ia ser um bom professor, e acho que tem muita gente que concorda comigo, mas tudo bem, eu já levo a minha vida sempre recebendo tudo calado, sem responder nada, não vou fikar chatiado com isso... O que eu fico mais chatiado é em achar um propósito pra mim, o que fazer, pra onde ir, essas coisas. Ahhhh pq isso é tão complikado? Eu queria fazer alguma coisa mais louvável, algo maior, mas essa sensação é como tentar abrir uma porta trancada, por mais que eu tente, ela não abre e eu não acho as minhas respostas.... Como eu queria ser alguém mais fácil de lidar! Será que um dia, eu vou ser alguém melhor? Será que eu vou fazer alguma coisa da qual eu me orgulhe? Não sei... O pior é que o relógio não para por causa de decisões erradas.
Sunday, Holiday and Movies.
10/12/2009 09:55:00 AM Postado por Vini Barros
Where Do They Care, It's Called Home
10/04/2009 02:42:00 PM Postado por Vini Barros
Yes, I'm weak, in fact I'm weaker than I thought! But that's okay, I still have no right to feel anything, I'm a monster after all, I see this into people's eyes, they look at me as I'm a monster something that should be vanished from the world. Yeah, I'm a monster, so I have no right to feel anything at all, I'm not supposed to dream, or have any kind of feeling, it's forbidden. We, monsters, only exist to be the villain, we're faded to be the ones whose must be defeated, so once we're gone people can be happy again, while I'm alive, people will always get afraid to look at me, talk to me, think of me.... be my friend. But that's okay, this is me, I can't change nothing at all. I can't change the fact that I'm not good on nothing, sports, studies, funny things, relations, nothing. So I just want to get in a place where I find monsters like me, the excluded from society, if I find this place, will they care about me there? Can call this place as my home? I don't know, I don't know, I don't know. I'm so tired to be a cute monster, I wanna be the monster I am, deep inside. I am really tired of trying to make people recognize that I exist, that I'm real, and I don't understand why I care so much about it, it's getting me crazy, I am locked in my own thoughts and I can't flee. Linkings, important people, love! Do I like them? Is this the reason that make me stay? Do I need them? Is it because of them that my real me, my monster, still sleeping? To many questions and no answers at all, as I said before I'm weak... and I cannot even shed a tear or smile.
ただいま
ただいま
Shatter, Kyouka Suigetsu
10/01/2009 02:41:00 PM Postado por Vini Barros
Hey, Can I sit here, by your side? You don't need to talk to me, that's okay for me. If I just have you here, my world is complete, so please don't go away from me, I know, I'm boring most of the time, and I'm disposable as broken glass, and I don't know how to change it, I want to be a bit more interesting, I want to make you laugh and be happy, but I know I cannot do that.
But don't worry, I won't feel blue, I do not have the right of such a thing, I don't deserve nothing at all, right? I'm just a soul that suffers for been caged, and I'm caged in this body, my body. I don't have nothing to offer to you, I'm not good at anything at all, I'm just some pathetic guy, who thinks better than does about everything, about life. Don't leave me because of it,I know I have nothing and you, you just make me feel so good, so better, and that hurts me, to see that I don't move you, I don't reach at you as you do to me. I know I asked you to not talk to me, but sometimes, it's good to listen some words of care, worry, friendship or at least one acknowledgment for trying to stay by your side, ´cause you know, one day I may wake up from my hypnosis and leave you, if I do that will you perceive that I'm gone? Will you care? Sometimes I want to know the answers but I get afraid after all.
Well, I'll sit here anyway, and look at you as this world slowly changes its colours, To blue to white, white to gray and gray to orange, to orange to darker than black and then breaks into orange and then to blue again. I know one day we're gonna stand up and walk, to anywhere we need/want to go, but while we're here I'm gonna enjoy it, the most as I can, I'll enjoy it 'till the break of the dawn, 'till the next drink, 'till the next bus stop, 'till the end of hypnosis.
In the end I'm the one who says: 'Thanks'.
Sunday, Funny Sunday [2]
9/28/2009 07:26:00 AM Postado por Vini Barros
Hey! Ontem fui no niver da Pamella, amiga minha desde lá dos primordios do ensino médio, quase que eu não ia, pro motivos de SEMAL, mas ainda bem que eu fui, fazia muito tempo que eu não me divertia tanto. Jogamos os games dos improváveis, hehehe, o meu "troca" foi hilário, depois que eu joguei ninguém mais conseguiu jogar, o "transforma" do Ramom tbm foi muito divertido, tbm quase infartei d tanto rir, realmente tava precisando relaxar mesmo, depois d tudo como sempre, acabamos jogando UNO e puttz ai a coisa rendeu, descobrimos q uma partida d UNO rende até piadas internas, q a Lalah acabou sendo excluida por não pegar as cartas, mas só d raiva ela ganhou a partida. Mas o mais legal foram as máscaras que a Pamella distriubiu, Pucca pras meninas e Garu, ou Pucco, pros meninos, ateh eu entrei no clima! Ehhhh concordo com o Ramom que disse q eu desapareço e perco essas loucuras quase toda semana, então tá não sumirei mais e sexta que vem é vadião e domingo, Morma! Bora farriar galera!
"Treinando pra fazer o cosplay em novembro"
バイ・マイ・サイ
9/27/2009 10:02:00 AM Postado por Vini Barros
Youtube videos are getting common here, don't you think?
Bloom, Sakura ~ E7 AMV
9/25/2009 11:24:00 AM Postado por Vini Barros
It's an AMV ( Anime Music Video) from the Tv show Eureka Seven, this show has such great songs, if you like anime's songs you should look for the Eureka 7's OST. By the way I like this Tv show, it's really good, but like Evangelion, I expected more from the ending, but different from Evangelion, I could understand the ending after all, so enjoy the video, and if you have the opportunity to watch the Tv show and listen the OST, do it, you're gonna enjoy a lot. that's all see ya!
EUREKA SEVEN - SAKURA AMV
I Think I Did It
9/24/2009 07:55:00 PM Postado por Vini Barros
Acho que finalmente achei um tema pro meu TCC, algo que já tinham me sugerido mas não tinha levado muita fé, mas hoje na aula, sei lá, resolvi arriscar e meter a cara! O tema em questão é: Ensinando Inglês através de mangás! XD! weird I know! Espero que algum professor queira me orientar sobre esse assunto, mas vamô que vamô dessa vez esse TCC sai!
"Thinking ahead, seeking the future." Drawing by Renan_Ishin
One Video More
9/22/2009 06:45:00 PM Postado por Vini Barros
Wanted[2]
9/21/2009 09:12:00 AM Postado por Vini Barros
The name of the band is SPITZ and the song is called 8823!
